I’ve known since I was a child that I was to be an actress when I grew up. I know it with every fiber of my being and soul. And this is now becoming a reality. I notice how the Universe is moving me towards my destiny. It doesn’t matter whether I want to do this or not. This is not a decision I can make. This is my destiny. It is my calling. It is my mission on this Earth. I have come here to create transformation in women across the world through my creative and healing work. Books, digital courses, writing, and acting in films.
I have avoided for years and years to become an actress because I’m too afraid to be seen. I don’t want to put myself out there. Because I feel so much that I don’t know how to express it in words. To my family. To my friends. Most of all, to my Beloved. I have often read of actors and artists who say acting is incredibly therapeutic for them. They take everything they feel and put it into their roles. They breathe life into their characters who come alive with such fire and intensity on the big screen.
I remember doing a scene when I was in high school. I was the geeky, awkward girl in high school. I remember wanting to be pretty and known like the “cool” kids in high school. We were asked to do a scene in front of the whole class. Every single student. We had to remember the lines. We had to express the lines with emotion. We had to become the character.
I honestly thought the “cool” kids would be able to pull it off so well because they are used to being seen and having all the attention. To my surprise, most people in my class weren’t able to complete the scene. It took several awkward tries for them. Some froze before even starting. When it came to my turn, I don’t think anyone expected anything from me. I was the quiet, simple Indian girl after all.
I completed the scene in one take. All lines said perfectly and with emotion and full expression. It was such a simple scene and only ten minutes long. In those ten minutes though, I felt myself transported. I felt myself connected to the Divine. To God. My teacher looked at me with shock and so did the rest of the class 🙂 Everyone clapped their hands for me and even though my soul knew it, I couldn’t understand myself. How was this so easy for me? Why did this feel so familiar to me? Why did this feel so spiritual for me?
I have found this very purpose in acting. To allow me to be who I am. To express who I am as a person. To be as sensual and fiery and seductive as I truly am deep inside. To take all my weirdness and package it into my art. I am meant to be an actress. I am meant to breathe life into characters and have them shine on the big screen with so much emotion and fire.
My training to be an actress starts this August. As soon as I wrap up my sex coaching and therapy, I am diving deep into acting. I am taking acting courses and training to be an artist. I am enrolling in a dance studio to learn the craft of dance, specifically Tango, Ballroom, and Latin styles. I am taking all that passion and pouring it into my characters and dance.
And, all of 2019, I continue my training to be an actress and simultaneously I’ll begin auditioning for parts and characters in films. I have no idea where this will all take me, though I’m willing to give my dream a chance. To give my soul a chance to express herself. To be who I am born to be.
Lots of Love,
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