Taking Responsibility for Having Vibrant Health and Loving My Body and All It Does For Me

August 1, 2018 by Priyanka Leave a Comment

Dear Reader,

Until this year, I’ve taken for granted how much my body does for me and how much of a true blessing it is to enjoy vibrant, great health and enjoying a beautiful body. Going through my sexual awakening and personal journey, I am starting to love the body I have and all it does for me. I look at every part of my body with awe. I am listening to her closely. Listening to the messages she provides me.

Embodying Your Inner Beauty to Enjoy Vibrant Health and Glow On the Outside

It is also this year that the simplest of tasks take great energy for me. It is the result of work, sadness, and other factors in my life. When I have to make dinner, I have to push myself off the sofa or bed I’m lying on. Or even to go to the restroom. I don’t have interest to go about my daily life. And this feeling scares me. I’ve had major meltdowns and mood swings. I also just feel really scared. Scared of talking to someone or opening my heart or trusting someone.

I know that life is very precious. It is very beautiful. I’m working on feeling happy again. Feeling these positive feelings again in my life. I also came to the realization that the corporate world is not for me. I’d like to transition into a role that will allow me to fully rest my body and do the things I love in my life and focus on enjoying vibrant health.

I read the book Adore Your Cycle by Claire Baker and fell in love with it. It teaches you how there are four seasons to a woman’s menstruation cycle: spring, summer, autumn, and winter. I found the book to be captivating and it truly opened my eyes to the role my cycle plays in my everyday life, emotions, energy levels, moods, and hormones. I can actually accurately predict my mood swings and when I will feel more sensitive. I highly recommend you to the read this book, dear Reader.

It will bring a new level of love and awareness to your self-care routine and lifestyle. You will know when you have more energy and when you need to deeply rest and harness this beautiful information to your creativity, sexuality, and day-to-day normal life.

I am also giving close attention to the foods I eat and consume on a daily basis. I eat more greens, veggies, and fruits. I drink more soy milk and green juice. I eat sourdough bread because it apparently breaks down in our body system and digests more easily. I used to feel nauseated in the mornings when I woke up and would have to immediately jump out of bed and put something in my mouth. I felt like I was going to faint if I didn’t eat something. I felt this between meals, too. It worried me because I ate food and didn’t understand why this was happening.

Until I observed my body and did research. I did a juice cleanse for three days and noticed how with only drinking juices and liquid soups, I didn’t have that nauseated feeling at all. It amazed me. Then, I realized I wasn’t eating enough fiber and this created that feeling in me. I immediately started to eat more fresh fruit instead of fruit juice and more green veggies in every meal. I also drink a lot of fresh green juices I make myself or buy from an organics juice shop.

The one thing that I’m working on and need to greatly improve is to exercise much more and move my body. I feel lazy and lethargic and it’s something I’d like to do for pleasure and vibrant health. Dance may become my form of exercise and I’m looking into various dance studios because I’d love to dance. I’d love to dance well. Most of all, I’d love to dance from my heart and soul. With passion and energy.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

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I am Destined to be a Fiery, Seductive Actress and Artist and My Training Starts this August

May 14, 2018 by Priyanka Leave a Comment

Dear Reader,

I’ve known since I was a child that I was to be an actress when I grew up. I know it with every fiber of my being and soul. And this is now becoming a reality. I notice how the Universe is moving me towards my destiny. It doesn’t matter whether I want to do this or not. This is not a decision I can make. This is my destiny. It is my calling. It is my mission on this Earth. I have come here to create transformation in women across the world through my creative and healing work. Books, digital courses, writing, and acting in films.

Becoming Intimate with My Sexuality to Become an Actress

I have avoided for years and years to become an actress because I’m too afraid to be seen. I don’t want to put myself out there. Because I feel so much that I don’t know how to express it in words. To my family. To my friends. Most of all, to my Beloved. I have often read of actors and artists who say acting is incredibly therapeutic for them. They take everything they feel and put it into their roles. They breathe life into their characters who come alive with such fire and intensity on the big screen.

I remember doing a scene when I was in high school. I was the geeky, awkward girl in high school. I remember wanting to be pretty and known like the “cool” kids in high school. We were asked to do a scene in front of the whole class. Every single student. We had to remember the lines. We had to express the lines with emotion. We had to become the character.

I honestly thought the “cool” kids would be able to pull it off so well because they are used to being seen and having all the attention. To my surprise, most people in my class weren’t able to complete the scene. It took several awkward tries for them. Some froze before even starting. When it came to my turn, I don’t think anyone expected anything from me. I was the quiet, simple Indian girl after all.

I completed the scene in one take. All lines said perfectly and with emotion and full expression. It was such a simple scene and only ten minutes long. In those ten minutes though, I felt myself transported. I felt myself connected to the Divine. To God. My teacher looked at me with shock and so did the rest of the class 🙂 Everyone clapped their hands for me and even though my soul knew it, I couldn’t understand myself. How was this so easy for me? Why did this feel so familiar to me? Why did this feel so spiritual for me?

I have found this very purpose in acting. To allow me to be who I am. To express who I am as a person. To be as sensual and fiery and seductive as I truly am deep inside. To take all my weirdness and package it into my art. I am meant to be an actress. I am meant to breathe life into characters and have them shine on the big screen with so much emotion and fire.

My training to be an actress starts this August. As soon as I wrap up my sex coaching and therapy, I am diving deep into acting. I am taking acting courses and training to be an artist. I am enrolling in a dance studio to learn the craft of dance, specifically Tango, Ballroom, and Latin styles. I am taking all that passion and pouring it into my characters and dance.

And, all of 2019, I continue my training to be an actress and simultaneously I’ll begin auditioning for parts and characters in films. I have no idea where this will all take me, though I’m willing to give my dream a chance. To give my soul a chance to express herself. To be who I am born to be.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

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Balancing Self-Care and Creating a Nourishing Morning Routine

August 30, 2017 by Priyanka Leave a Comment

I am not a morning person at all. I’ve been fortunate to hold jobs where my commute was quick and I could get more than eight hours of sleep and still wake up rather late. Yet my day progressed in a hazy and scattered way.

Honoring Yourself through a Nourishing Morning Routine

After work, I squeeze in dinner, television, and an occasional gym workout. It is only recently I am realizing the sheer beauty and value of having a morning routine that not only wakes you up in a gentle way, but is nourishing to your body and soul.

Right now, I have the flexibility to work from my home. It is incredibly wonderful and yet I am being lazy and going through my day unconsciously.

I decided to create a morning routine that feels supportive, feminine, and ultimately joyful.

My Simple Morning Routine

Drink a glass of water with lemon squeezed and a teaspoon of honey.
Do 15-minute yoga stretches and exercises.
Take a shower and get dressed. Then, make a simple breakfast of scrambled eggs and veggies.

I wanted to keep my routine simple because I’m not a morning person and want to be motivated to do this on a daily basis. It took some effort and practice to start my day earlier and get into the routine. I have to say once I got into the groove, it’s becoming second nature. My body is naturally waking up earlier and my body is calling me to become still and enjoy my own presence. Sometimes, I’ll also meditate for 10-15 minutes lying in my bed.

Creating a Deep, Strong Self-Connection

I have other family members at home and I love my family, but I need my precious, sacred alone time to relish my own presence and simply be. I’ve noticed that it’s helping me to get my mind centered and feel connected to my inner self. It gives me the privacy and space to honor my emotions and feelings and allow what needs to be addressed and acknowledged to rise to the surface.

I’ve never been the person who can cry at the drop of a hat and nor do I cry openly, even in front of my family members or a partner. As I’m growing older, I realize how uncomfortable I feel with expressing my own emotions, so this morning routine is letting me see myself as a passive, neutral observer.

Some mornings, I will wake up and feel a tightness in my throat and a nervous energy throbbing in my stomach and chest area. My morning routine will ease that, but the feeling won’t go away entirely. I will go through my day (office, gym, etc.) extremely aware and conscious of this energy in my body.

It’s also allowing me to create a stronger connection to my intuition and when I meet people and encounter interesting situations, I find my intuition becoming laser sharp and active immediately.

Time for Reflection

This morning time also has created time to reflect on the day, week, or month. I take this time to go over what I need to complete and look back on what I am grateful for and how I can re calibrate to make things smoother the next time around to fulfill my intention, project, or desire gracefully.

I also like pondering on the special learnings and wisdom I gained from the experiences I’m having and the projects I’m working on. It’s not just ticking items off from a To-Do list. I like to feel in my body how I’m feeling and give space for my emotions. I honor my body, soul, and emotions.

I like to connect to my deep feminine sexuality and intuition. It’s a beautiful, freeing, sensual feeling. I drink tea or wine, eat good, healthy food, and take the time to go deep within. At this time, I turn to my journal to document my learnings and the wisdom my body and higher self offers me.

Moments of Peace & Flow Before a Day Filled with Activities

My days and weeks vary tremendously. I never quite know how my day or week unfold. For this reason, I like to include some sense of stability, order, and calmness to the sometimes chaotic nature of life. I don’t have much choice on what occurs at times. I DO have full control and choice on how I feel. So I focus on feeling peaceful and centered so my day flows with much more ease.

Do you have a morning self-care routine? How would you like your morning self-care routine to look and feel like? Please let me know in the comments! I’d love to hear from you.

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7 Beautiful Nuggets of Wisdom I Gained during My Mexico Vacation!

July 8, 2015 by Priyanka 2 Comments

I just came from a trip to Mexico. It was a much needed break and I was happy to get away for 2 weeks. An intention I had set for myself this year was to travel to a foreign country. It was amazing how this trip fell into place perfectly!

It happened 2 weeks before I left for Mexico. One of my close friends informed me that a girl wasn’t able to go through with this vacation/volunteer program to Mexico. She encouraged me to submit my application and though I wasn’t sure if I would be accepted, I thought why not give it a chance?

Nuggets of Wisdom I Gained while Traveling

Long Story Short: I was Accepted into the Program!

My close friend and I had been planning to travel for years and this Mexico trip was going to be the one the Universe had decided! I booked my airfare and packed my luggage to head to Mexico.

I am feeling refreshed and recharged and I want to share the nuggets of wisdom I gained from this trip:

Listen to Your Discomfort

I went with a group of four other individuals to Mexico, each chosen from a different country. We traveled, dined, and partied together. In a span of 2 weeks, we visited 6 Mexican cities.

I was definitely thrown off balance at times. The heat, hunger, or simply moving at such a fast pace took its toll on me. I felt tired faster. Also, traveling with complete strangers except for my close friend was exciting but nerve wracking. I felt my belly and chest burn with nervousness and fear.

Going on a vacation has a strong positive connotation and rightly so. But the truth is traveling brings up uncomfortable emotions as well. Remember these uncomfortable emotions are messages for you. It is up to you to listen to them and feel them thoroughly.

I literally talked myself through this uncomfortable emotions and moments. I even let the tears fall sometimes. I didn’t judge myself for feeling this way. Traveling is fun, but for a shy and introverted person like me, it was also difficult to deal with a foreign environment and constantly be surrounded by people.

Get in Touch with Your Body

The schedule was jam-packed with fun activities. I woke up around seven each morning, had a light breakfast, and then headed off to a whirlwind day filled with sightseeing, touring, dining, and partying. It was super fun! I visited museums, art exhibitions, sports arenas, wineries, pool parties, the list is endless. I dined at restaurants and had delicious meals. (My mouth still waters at the memories of the food….)

I am truly grateful for the Mexican people and their generosity in taking us to all these places. They took every tiny need of ours into consideration and made us feel as comfortable as possible.

However, with such a busy schedule and being with groups of people about 18 hours a day, I had little time for myself. I found myself dragging my body throughout the day to the different activities planned.

I realized it was because I needed to be in touch with my body. I needed alone time to relish in my inner presence, so I could be more present throughout the day. Luckily, I had taken my computer, so I incorporated a simple morning routine before I left my host family’s home for the day. I did simple meditations to calm myself and clear my mind.

Remember when you are traveling that your morning routine does not need to be elaborate. Keep it simple since you’re on vacation. Close your eyes and do a body scan. Don’t rush this process and pay close attention to how each part of your body feels – hips, arms, hands, legs, thighs, face, neck, feet, stomach, etc.

Ask yourself how you’re feeling and show love to each part. This will allow you to fall into a deeper connection with yourself and you will feel more supported as you go through your days while traveling.

Be Direct and Kind in Your Expression

Boy, this trip activated all sorts of triggers in me! I realized I don’t function to my optimal if I don’t take the time to drop into a deep inner space before surrounding myself with people. I become cranky and irritated more easily.

Indeed this happened during the trip. I found my inner balance knocked over several times. This also speaks of everyone else in the group, too. Traveling together means we spent most of our time together. We became close and a deep level of intimacy was established. This is one of the beauties of traveling with strangers. Somewhere in the trip, deep friendships and bonds were formed.

However, it also meant we saw all the sides of each other. Kind of like living together with your partner or spouse! You see everything! Not just the good stuff!

I learned that when my needs or desires weren’t being met, I became more withdrawn. I became passive-aggressive. I found myself festering with anger or worry at times. I experienced this even with my close friend and truthfully, it troubled me. I didn’t want to feel this way towards anyone and not especially towards my close friend.

I learned that I needed to be more direct in my expression. I learned to speak openly and freely, but with immense kindness when something bugged me. I didn’t need to be indirect or passive aggressive. I’m not perfect in any way and I’m sure my quirks must have gotten over the others’ heads, too and I learned to own up to my flaws as well.

Take the Time to Slow Down

There is a mystical and fantasy quality to traveling. I literally felt like I was in a fantasy world at times. The days moved by so quickly. Before I could fathom, I was in a new city, adjusting to a new environment and group of people.

It is important to especially take the time to slow down during a vacation. Think about this for a moment. Though I believe that your normal life must be filled with lots of space and freedom, too, the truth is you go on a vacation to relax and slow down.

And sometimes traveling ends up being more chaotic and exhausting. Then, what is the point of vacationing? Make sure you take the time to slow down. It could mean doing a meditative body scan in your hotel room or enjoying a cup of tea at a cafe while gazing at the lush scenery outside.

Strike a Balance

I remember going to restaurants or sightseeing when I wanted nothing more than to revel in my solitude. I didn’t want to open my mouth and talk to anyone. It wasn’t that my company wasn’t enjoyable. My company was perfect and always gracious.

It is just that as a person I enjoy my space as much as socializing. Even at home with my family, I go to my room to enjoy time with myself.

Strike a beautiful balance on your travels. Allocate large chunks of time where you spend it in solitude reading a book or sipping on a glass of wine. This way, when you do spend time with your family, friends, and strangers on vacation, you will be more present.

Nourish Yourself with Good Food and Rest

I didn’t get enough sleep in Mexico. There were nights spent partying, drinking, and swimming merrily. I didn’t get the opportunity to sleep in the next day due to the jam packed schedule. For my next vacation, I would incorporate the time to sleep in more.

From a food perspective, I ate tacos, enchiladas, ravishing desserts, and seafood delicacies. I didn’t have any boundaries when it came to food being the foodie that I am! At one of the houses I stayed at, the host family whipped up fabulous healthy green smoothies! It was a welcome change from the other rich food I was consuming.

Keep yourself nourished by eating full, healthy meals, sleeping eight hours every night, drinking lots of water, enjoying fresh air, etc. You will feel more supported and physically vibrant. This will cause you to naturally feel calmer and peaceful.

Let Go, Party, and Enjoy!

Finally, immerse yourself in the culture or country you find yourself traveling in. Talk to the locals and observe the city, roads, shops, and inhabitants. You will find that ultimately they are no different from you.

I had lots of conversations in Mexico and learned some useful expressions of Spanish. I connected deeply with many and friendships were formed. I danced, swam, and let myself go at pool parties or other events. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I laughed with tears in my eyes.

There is a beauty to immersing yourself in an unfamiliar culture. Have insightful conversations. Make jokes. Laugh. Dance. Party. Eat. Drink. Let go! Have the time of your life!

How do you feel when you vacation? Do you feel discomfort at times? Do you feel nourished during your travels? Please share with me in the comments!

Live On Your Own Once During Your 20s!

May 7, 2015 by Priyanka 2 Comments

When I graduated from college, I moved straight back home. It was to put it mildly…an interesting experience….

I love my parents and family, but it was definitely an adjustment to move back home after living on my own during college. During college, I had lived in the dorms and shared an apartment.

Living On Your Own!

Living On My Own Terms

I got used to having my own space and doing things on my own time table. I didn’t have those things at home. It didn’t help either that I didn’t have a driver’s license until I turned 23.

Now the pluses? I got home made meals. My laundry was done. My room was clean. I enjoyed the loving and supporting company of my parents.

I Was Desiring to Live on My Own Again…

The bubble to live on my own soon desired in my heart again. I made a conscious decision to move out of my family home when I turned 25. My parents weren’t thrilled with the decision.

In fact, they never once openly expressed their opinion. Whenever I discussed moving out, they continued to focus their eyes on the television and behave as if they hadn’t heard me at all! It was like I was invisible!

I get it. If they hadn’t heard, how could they give their agreement, right? 🙂

Anyway, I finally found an apartment and wonderful rooomie to share the place with. I’m still living with her and now it’s been 4 years at this amazing apartment.

I want to share some reasons on why you should definitely considering living on your own at least once during your 20s! It’s definitely helped me to grow up and been overall just a beautiful experience.

You Become More Responsible

Living on my own has made me more aware of my responsibilities. I don’t have my parents to clean the place or do my laundry anymore. Things I took for granted like paying for utilities and rent are now my responsibilities.

Betters Your Relationship with Your Parents & Family

Because I realized the things I took for granted while living at home, I developed a new found respect for my parents. Also, having space now, it bettered my relationship with them. Whenever we spent time with each other, we valued the time immensely.

You Explore and Experience

Being in your twenties is a great way to explore what you want from life and even what you don’t want… I definitely took the time to party and go out. After a while, when the partying lifestyle got boring, I explored other things like going to the city to check out an art museum or trying a new wine. Or painting.

It’s a great time to experiment when you’re living on your own.

Can Stay Out Late or Not!

One of the most enticing things about living on your own is to do everything at your own time table. You are not accountable to anyone about how late you stayed or where you’re going. Ironically and amusingly, I actually now make the decision to not go out or come home early. I enjoy staying in!

Date Freely

It’s a lot easier to date and bring someone home! You don’t have to think about whose going to be there. Personally, I could also spend more time with my guy because I had my own time table.

Learn About Yourself

Just like living with someone shows you their good and not so great sides, I feel it’s the same for ourselves. I learned a lot about what I truly wanted from my life and came face to face with confronting emotions. I learned to be more comfortable being myself as well.

You Become More Independent

I learned to depend on myself and become self-sufficient. It’s easily one of the most important life skills I learned living on my own!

Comfortable Doings By Yourself

Another beautiful thing that came out of this whole thing? I feel comfortable being myself and being with myself. There have been several times I’ve watched a movie by myself. Or I went to grab a meal on a Friday or Saturday night with only moi as company. Why? Because I enjoy my own company.

What is your biggest takeaway from this post? Please share with me in the comments!