I talk about my deep unraveling and transformation that unfolded over the course of two years often. How I finally had the courage to face myself and heal my wounds. And learned to love and accept myself deeply. A core part of this journey included becoming connected to the richness of my sexuality and sensuality. I was sexually frozen. I had no sense of my own sexuality. I didn’t even realize that I was a sexual being and how much of my worth was linked to how I saw myself sexually.
Working with a female embodiment coach was one of the best decisions I made during that time. It helped me to connect to my erotic woman and shed layers of fears and expectations that I had unnecessarily piled onto my sexuality. It was painful to be honest. Many tears were shed. I couldn’t believe how much I had been hiding myself and how terrified I was of being seen and revealing any hint of my sexuality.
The truth was and is that I am a deeply sexual woman. I am an intense erotic and sensual woman and I have always been. I remember as a teenager trying on dresses and clothes and I could feel my curvy body hugging the clothes. I could feel the fiery hotness of my sweet sensuality. But I thought I wasn’t worth it. I thought I wasn’t pretty enough. I thought I wasn’t hot enough. I thought I wasn’t sexy enough.