Until this year, I’ve taken for granted how much my body does for me and how much of a true blessing it is to enjoy vibrant, great health and enjoying a beautiful body. Going through my sexual awakening and personal journey, I am starting to love the body I have and all it does for me. I look at every part of my body with awe. I am listening to her closely. Listening to the messages she provides me.
It is also this year that the simplest of tasks take great energy for me. It is the result of work, sadness, and other factors in my life. When I have to make dinner, I have to push myself off the sofa or bed I’m lying on. Or even to go to the restroom. I don’t have interest to go about my daily life. And this feeling scares me. I’ve had major meltdowns and mood swings. I also just feel really scared. Scared of talking to someone or opening my heart or trusting someone.
I know that life is very precious. It is very beautiful. I’m working on feeling happy again. Feeling these positive feelings again in my life. I also came to the realization that the corporate world is not for me. I’d like to transition into a role that will allow me to fully rest my body and do the things I love in my life and focus on enjoying vibrant health.
I read the book Adore Your Cycle by Claire Baker and fell in love with it. It teaches you how there are four seasons to a woman’s menstruation cycle: spring, summer, autumn, and winter. I found the book to be captivating and it truly opened my eyes to the role my cycle plays in my everyday life, emotions, energy levels, moods, and hormones. I can actually accurately predict my mood swings and when I will feel more sensitive. I highly recommend you to the read this book, dear Reader.
It will bring a new level of love and awareness to your self-care routine and lifestyle. You will know when you have more energy and when you need to deeply rest and harness this beautiful information to your creativity, sexuality, and day-to-day normal life.
I am also giving close attention to the foods I eat and consume on a daily basis. I eat more greens, veggies, and fruits. I drink more soy milk and green juice. I eat sourdough bread because it apparently breaks down in our body system and digests more easily. I used to feel nauseated in the mornings when I woke up and would have to immediately jump out of bed and put something in my mouth. I felt like I was going to faint if I didn’t eat something. I felt this between meals, too. It worried me because I ate food and didn’t understand why this was happening.
Until I observed my body and did research. I did a juice cleanse for three days and noticed how with only drinking juices and liquid soups, I didn’t have that nauseated feeling at all. It amazed me. Then, I realized I wasn’t eating enough fiber and this created that feeling in me. I immediately started to eat more fresh fruit instead of fruit juice and more green veggies in every meal. I also drink a lot of fresh green juices I make myself or buy from an organics juice shop.
The one thing that I’m working on and need to greatly improve is to exercise much more and move my body. I feel lazy and lethargic and it’s something I’d like to do for pleasure and vibrant health. Dance may become my form of exercise and I’m looking into various dance studios because I’d love to dance. I’d love to dance well. Most of all, I’d love to dance from my heart and soul. With passion and energy.
Lots of Love,