Confusion filled this week. For the most part, I knew why I felt confused and reflective. It was end of the year and I still hadn’t received answers to some of my questions in my life. There was this other part of me that soothed and showed up for myself big time. I felt deep surrender and calmness when I made peace with the confusion and unknown.
There were things that sudden came at me I hadn’t expected. My higher self must have known though. Because how I would have normally responded didn’t occur this time. I knew I had finally learnt and mastered the golden learning with my response. I knew that I was beginning to shed and reveal the new Priyanka.
So it is definitely interesting this week has coincided with Pillar 5: RECEIVE. I love receiving. It makes me feel sexy, sensual, and powerful.
As a woman, we are natural receivers. We are constantly receiving attention, love, pleasure, work, emotions, money, etc. To fulfill your desires, you must open yourself up to receiving your desire.
How do you receive your desire? Simple! We are always manifesting. Our thoughts ultimately form our actions and create our reality. Become clear about your desire, clearing blocks, and clean and create energetic space. Because how would more money, love, abundance, or whatever you desire come when you don’t create space for it.
Besides increasing my ability to receive this week, I noticed EVERYTHING I was receiving. Like LITERALLY. Both good and otherwise. I made a list of it.
Here is my taste of my list:
Sacred Money, Love, Sensuality, Food, Wine, Sexual Energy, Orgasms, Fear, Work, Nervousness, Tenderness, Support, Kindness, Compassion, Dreams, Physical Exercise, Hunger, Tiredness, Anger, Peace, Jealousy, Ego, Sensitivity, Touch, Alluring Music, Attention, Vulnerability, Family, Self-Respect, Health, Heat, Space, Conversations, Coldness, Lingerie, Softness, Sadness, Confusion Pleasure, Happiness, Memories, Compliments, Desire.
At the end of the week, when I read my list, I was happy that I had turned up the volume on receiving money, compliments, pleasure, and love had greatly increased. I also noticed that I didn’t receive relaxation so easily and instead drew in work more easily. It’s as if I felt guilty when I wasn’t busy or working.
This is something that I want to work on. I want to feel my money and all channels and sources of both expected and unexpected income to flow to me more easily and gracefully with a balance of effort and energy from me.
I also picked a specific belief I have around receiving and work on releasing this belief. This can be anything from I want to receive love with ease to I receive large of sums of money happily.
The current theme running in my life is marriage and partnership. It is something I deeply, deeply desire in my life. I desire to share my life with my partner from a place of truth, love, and abundance. I can feel that though the inner depths of my body tells me this is the next phase of my life, there are some blocks around receiving marriage and this is why it hasn’t happened yet.
Being guided by my higher self, I tore a sheet of paper from my journal and lit a candle. (I love lighting candles when journaling and playing music that suits my mood at the time)
I made a ritual of this. I wrote on the paper with the beautiful, luminous candle light flowing onto my skin and paper: I receive my husband and our marriage with grace, ease, love, and happiness. I wrote this in the present tense because I want my subconscious mind to accept this seed of desire and realize in its own divine way.
*Quick note: don’t write your desires or affirmations in the future tense because otherwise they will stay in the future tense. ALWAYS write and speak them in the present tense.*
I also wrote that I release all and everything to create space for my husband and marriage. I close my eyes and let the words sink into my body. An electric feeling pulsed through my body. Some sensations and images dropped into my mind. I couldn’t make them exactly, but I felt the sensations fully.
I opened my eyes and burned the paper using my candle and watch the paper fade away. There was something intensely alluring, sexy, and beautiful about this ritual. I then journaled to this afterwards:
DO: How does it make you feel when you receive a compliment, pleasure, money, etc.? How can you make receiving an easier process that flows with grace and ease?
I wrote for some time and one of the main sentences that stood out to me was: Get out of my own way.
The tools and practices I used to embody my intention and focus on Pillar 5 Receive:
The Mind (mental intelligence): Observing my thoughts and beliefs around receiving all that I received this week and around receiving marriage. I realized that I need to have a more positive view of marriage and relationships and believe that it’s possible to have a happy, fulfilling marriage by first having a happy, fulfilling relationship with myself.
The Body (instinctual intelligence/body wisdom): Truthfully, I didn’t do much body work in this pillar. I largely napped a lot and ensured I nourished my body with healthy foods and ate on time and slept on time. I took hot showers because they have a calming, healing effect on me.
The Heart (emotional intelligence): Journaling about the questions earlier I mentioned and also making the list of all that I was receiving, including EVERYTHING, both good and otherwise. Writing my belief around receiving specifically on receiving my husband and marriage and burning the paper as a beautiful, divine ritual.
The Soul (higher self/spirit): Understanding what my higher self wants to lead and teach me. In this week, it was that my higher self wanted to lead me to the next phase of my life by guiding me how to receive my husband and marriage with ease and grace and flow.
Lots of Love,
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